relationship wednesday: the good, the bad, and the uuuuugly

5:30 this morning i woke with rage in me.

do tell…

how is it possible to wake in a bad mood

before ones toes have graced the chilly hardwood floors?

before one’s eyes have fluttered open…

even before the smell of coffee

and the barrage of the days to do’s have started filing into the brain

like militant little soldiers?

but there it was, solidly perched at the foot of the bed….

crankiness.

and it followed me, in the predawn darkness,

all the way to the gym as i sat on my bike,

arms crossed to the world,

water bottle forgotten,

tank top on backwards,

scowl on my face....

then i caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and thought….

lady, you’ve got one hour to pull your shit together.

sooo, i started imagining riding down a long stretch of road in a forest of green.

and the road coming at me was rage red, angry and full of pot holes…

but i let it come….

all my crankiness and my grumps,

my complaints and my bitches

they all came baring down upon me,

fast and furious

but the second they hit the front wheel,

i rolled right over them

and let them go.

and poof…..

they disappeared.

and in that moment the road turned from red

to a luminous shade of silver

streaming out behind me like a riverlet of forgivness.

sound crazy?

perhaps it was…

but in a flash, i left crankiness in a ditch

and was on the road

...to a much brighter day

smiles ~ m