eye, i captain

har har

snort

seriously though.

a little spiritual levity for a sunday...

 kisses m

lemons

or in this case, a month

lots has happened in the first 31 days of the new year.

i was preggers 

(que smiles, excitement and 

a sharp uptick in semi obsessive what's happening today baby websites )

i was not preggers 

(que depressing music, ER visits, cookies and lots and lots of tv)

my evil co-worker quit 

(que applause, high fives and non toxic work environment)

i am now doing the work of three people 

(que days spent eating lunch at my desk or not eating at all)

i was still preggers but not really preggers 

(que the confusion, que the methotrexate...que the emotions and the cramps and the mouth sores

....que feeling like a failure and feeling this whole preggers process has just really really sucked)

i found out that in the next three months i am going to 

florida, south africa (yeah, you read that right), chicago, riviera maya, 

puerta vallarta and montreal 

(que bikinis, planes, malaria shots and safaris,
exotic foods and even more exotic animals
and places and things i probably couldn't have done had i been preggers

que the start of a smile)

bad things happen....
and when they do
people feed us that cough, cough bullshit line that la-la-la
everything happens for a reason 

and then perhaps something actually happens...

and no matter what it is we go all reflective, quasi contemplative. 

we pump it up, we throw glitter on it, 

we talk about it and we dramatize it until it has become

..... that reason. 

and just like that,

 ah ha!...our failure, our loss, our hurt is vindicated!!

but somewhere deep inside...
we know that's really bullshit too.  

we really just wanted the other thing, the thing that didn't happen.  

the thing that didn't work out ...

but when faced with the alternative
what can ya do but throw on your travelin shoes
and say...

it all happens for a reason

xoxo - m

bye bye birdie

i sat down on january 2 and ended my post with a wish and a hope that 

2012 would bring us a little mr and mrs c.

i awoke on the 3rd and magically, my wish had been granted.

january 13 you left as silently and as quickly as you came.

i might have only known you for 10 days but that didn't diminish the fact that

....i had fallen in love.

today we release you lil sprout 

and send you off with blessings of peace

and thanks for your short time with us.

xoxo

~ your mom 

bring it

is totally going to kick ass

i can just feel it 

first of all it started out with a bang!

a night of riotous laughter,

fabulous friends,

decadent food, delicious drinks 

and a dance party that didn't die until long after the roaring fire 

had gobbled up wisps of paper scribbled with the wants, wishes and desires 

of 10 lovers of life for the new year. 

but today, 

with the last remnants of the 2011 swept neatly into piles and out the door

i am slowly waking from a contemplative state of of anamnesis 

and am focused on tomorrow.

for the next 363 days i will strive to.....

cultivate my own inner adytum

i will choose to 

i will set my intentions each evening and remember that

i will acknowledge that only i can control how i feel and that while

 i will engage the people and the places around me and know that

i will passionately 

i will find new ways to play and laugh and love and grow with mr c

and i will revel in our third year of marriage

 i will look forward to the day when our new nest is ready to call home

and i will keep fingers and toes crossed that one day in the not too distant future 

we'll be able to fill those empty rooms with love and little

an ambitious list of wants, no doubt,

but i really do think this is going to be

the best year yet.

xoxo ~ mrs & ms m

i spy a new year

i do believe

the countdown has begun....

so put on your hottest number 

cuz it's

....see you on the other side.

2012 kisses

~ m

holly jolly saturday cheer

who says you need mistletoe

less is more

i believe...do you?

 next years project...

ornaments made from old books or stories you love

happy saturday!

xoxo ~ mrs m

weekend wisdom

a little weekend wisdom....

enjoy

xoxo~ m